11.14.2007

Rampant Petulance

Peevish. Cross and snappish behavior. Easily annoyed and bothered.

Do you ever have one of those days where everything annoys you? EVERYTHING. It doesn’t matter what anyone says or does, you just feel like stuffing Q-tips up their nose and screaming, “FUCK off!”. It’s as if something in you has snapped and you have simply lost the capacity to be polite or friendly or sympathetic. You balk at the prospect of having to be social and civil and productive because really all you want to do is pull the covers up over your head.

Some may mistake your petulance for depression or sadness or anger. But, as you know, it is none of these things. It is being absurdly irritated with the most trifling of things for no apparent reason. Which makes you feel guilty for being a jerk, which makes you feel more irritated. A vicious cycle. And you yourself are not spared. You are disgusted with yourself for your arbitrary irritability which makes any self-destructive behavior seem oh-so-attractive.

Do you ever have days like that? Yeah, me too.

8 comments:

Boty said...

I think this is our everyday life Saffron.

Terah Lynn said...

I have felt like this most of this week with a few exceptions of "happiness". Although i'm associating my bouts of petulance with a lack of sleep and rest from last weekend.

cathryn said...

No, this is NOT my everyday life. Really - I'm usually quite pleasant. This is actually an unusual frame of mind for me.

I attribute most of it to crashing computers, exploding windows and the project-from-hell!

Daniel said...

I think you would be better if you found some things that helped you relax. I wonder where you could find such things?

Gibbarella said...

I told you this would make you feel better, and next week you get to come to our house and eat turkey oh how you love the bird. It isnt you at all, as you know I get in this funk of petulance (dont think I have ever used that word)and you are always the bubbly one when Im in my funk so I guess that would be the reason I have actually been in a great mood this week. I have your mojo.

Sandra said...

yep! i have many days like this - well maybe not many.. just a few. when i don't have enough chocolate.

cathryn said...

Kel - gimme back my mojo! :)

Sandy - I definitely think more chocolate would've been beneficial!

SPAM said...

Sure I have many days like that, but then that's why I blog. I have to vent out to the anonymous world my frustrations. I do hold back though because if I vented everything it would be worse than global warming.